"baby"
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"Baby"
dream of Madonna
"I
am in the doctor's office. The doctor says "The heart
beat of your fetus is very weak. I'd like to do an ultrasound
examination of it." Once she is done with the exam the
doctor announces to me - "Your baby is dead. You didn't
have enough rest, so it's dead." I am seeing the baby detaching
from placenta floating in my belly. Hysterical, I am breaking
into tears, screaming "My God, I killed my baby. I killed
my baby!"
Source:
Vogue, November, 1996. (Translated from French)
The
interpretation
1996.
Madonna is pregnant with her first child Lourdes Maria. This
dream or rather nightmare of the singer bears the traces of
any woman's worries about her first unborn child. This dream
is about motherhood. But for Madonna motherhood is more than
just about giving birth.
1996.
Evita. Pregnant Madonna is filming Evita. In an interview to
Mim Udovitch in January 1997 Madonna recollects "When I
was cast in the movie, I was psyched to play the part."
Anyone would be. Madonna was only one of the actresses who were
tried for it. But it was she who wanted it the most. She wanted
it badly. Madonna strongly related to the story of Argentina's
legendary first Lady Eva Peron. In order to get the part Madonna
wrote a big personal letter to Alan Parker, the director, explaining
her interest. It worked. One more time she got what she wanted.
"I
know how much heart she risked in this projects"
says Antonio Banderas who plays Che. But pregnant Madonna is
now risking not one but two hearts - hers and of her unborn
daughter. Madonna works hard on the movie, and records a soundtrack.
Why
does motherhood have a special significance to Madonna?
In
the same interview to Mim Udovitch Madonna confesses - "I
think it would be a very healing experience because I didn't
grow up with a mother and I envision hugging and tactile pleasure
and the happiness of that. And I think how amazing to have someone
in my life who's a part of me in a way that no one else can
be, no matter how much you love them. There's also the feeling
of responsibility that's different from any other love".
Madonna cherishes the idea of becoming a mother because through
the birth of her daughter life would make a full circle.
Usually "immune" to the press, Madonna gets very upset
about something that appeared in the media that year. The singer
recalls -"One thing I read that really, really, really
irked me, where I did have to take a couple of deep breaths,
was a little blurb during that minute there when everybody was
making a big deal about the Clintons and their maybe wanting
to adopt a baby. It said something like: "Hillary wants
to adopt a baby; Madonna has one available." You know implying
that I was completely and utterly disconnected
from my pregnancy and could care less about my baby. I really
got upset."
This little blurb in the press that got Madonna so upset was
an expression of some people's sentiment about pregnant Madonna.
For a lot of them, pregnancy was just another marketing trick.
But apparently, Madonna didn't share the sentiment at all. Madonna
got upset because she cared a lot about her baby. That's why
the idea of losing her baby was a scary one. Materialized in
the dream, this anxiety is represented by the dead fetus detaching
itself from placenta.
An internationally recognized dream expert Lauren Lawrence says that in this particular dream "the detachment theme is multi-faceted. Of course, on one level Madonna was detached from her mother so there is a repetition of that early traumatic detachment. In this view, the dead baby, once again, is Madonna, for that death marked the end of her childhood."
In
the dream Madonna's own fear to lose her unborn baby gives way
to a flood of emotions in the doctor's office. But has anyone
seen a hysterical screaming and crying Madonna yet? That doesn't
seem like her style. But this outburst of emotions is a proof
that Madonna is a vulnerable human being like anyone else. And
it is dreams that hold this well-hidden from the public secret
about the "material" girl. Amen...
"baby"
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